What If You Struggle to Draw Near to God Because You Felt Let Down?

I loved God long before I understood why closeness felt hard.

What I thought was a faith issue turned out to be a survival skill. When being chosen felt conditional, I didn’t stop believing — I just learned how to hold parts of myself back.

This reflection explores how abandonment, disappointment, and unmet needs quietly shape the way we relate to God — and what begins to shift when we ask the gentler question: What did my heart need that it never received?